Whats been going on...

So the last two weeks have been spend between me wonting to a lot of things to not doing anything at all. But its not all been laziness and falling into this empty void of nothingness like I have been doing for the last two years sadly. Not to say I have't been doing anything the last two years but its not really been much of anything and I'm tired of it.

Since being sick I have had to change a lot within my life and I wasn't till the last week or so of July that I realized just how much I have been in a slump emotionally, physically, even some what spiritually.

One change that has happened for the better was:
I have had to revamp all of my eating habits now that I know for sure I am lactose intolerant and with all the gallbladder issues I have had to cut out a lot of difference foods like beef and spicy foods. Despite all of this its actually been fun and not at all hard to accomplish. I am also finally loosing all this extra weight that I gained starting two years ago.
I had been going to the gym on campus and even with eating fast food all the time I was at the lowest I had ever been of 160. I alway stay around 175 never getting above 180 and never below 170 but I was actually making progress and losing the weight. Then a lot of things happened and I moved to FL to live with my grama and shit changed fast before I knew it I was 250 lbs and nothing not even just doing daily walking like I use to was fixing it.
With this new diet I am actually losing weight without even doing anything and I couldn't be more happier that I am not as heavy as I have been this last year and a half.

Another change has been:
A few week ago I found this new techno musician and fell in love with a description he left for one of his songs called Stargazing. The description goes:

While looking up deep into the galaxies and cosmos on a clear winter night, the stars brighter then ever before the cold wind blowing through your hair, and the most beautiful meteor shower to have ever graced the skies plummeting to Earth, you are suddenly struck by the awe-inspiring sense of insignificance, yet utter belonging within out universe.

I was stuck by the utter meaning and felling behind this. Add in his music and how well it conveys this I have decided to start using this thought and music in my meditations. I have been struggling with my meditations and doing them regularly here in the last couple of months has been nonexistent. This has shed a new light about how im going about my meditations and a deeper form of meditation that I have been lacking. Mediation having come easy to me seemed to loose its appeal and meaning to me.


I have also notices a big change in my general practices picking up since the hospital. I had been starting daily walks again right before I got sick and that was it. Now that walks are not an option I realize how much Ive been ignoring in my spiritual path and have been lieing to myself by thinking that because Im communing with nature and all that I normally do in my walks I was just going through the motions of an old routine that no long holds as much meaning to me as I use to.

Since the hospital I have started things that I wouldn't have been doing being stuck inside all the time and I have come to realize the importance of them finally in a way that I am so happy that I do now. I have been drawing out my book of shadow pages finally giving me visuals for me to learn faster and honestly make me feel more centered in my path not so wondering around. Also with school supplies being on sale I went and got a bunch of $0.25 spiral notebooks and now have them all dedicated to a topic.

I have a dream and meditations journal which Im actually keeping up something that I have never been able to do for longer then a week YAY.

A journal on topics I wish to actually post about my path and tips im hoping will help others like myself such as my hidden altar ideals I posted on here and on the forum I frequent.

One strictly for Poseidon and another for Artemis I am hoping to log all my knowledge about them and things that I connect with them and log events that happen with them. I also plan on doing this with my dragons and dragon meditations, I have been so bad a student when it comes to my dragons and I hate how neglectful i have been to them since working on finding my god and goddess and figuring all the things I have since February.

I also thought it would be a good ideal to keep a book on quotes and things I find that invoke meaning to me spiritually or that I connect to personally. This way I can keep them always and go back over them when I need a boost like I have been.


Final words:
Im hoping by doing all the things I have I will keep up some form of daily practice and that my path will be more firm then it has been in my search for what I knew to be my Goddess and what I knew my abilities to be. I cant even begin to describe the amount of growth I have had in the last year and to be honest I hope that my growth just keeps growing as abundant as it has been. I am finally feeling more myself then ever, more open to trying things and more social then ever. I love you my God, Goddess, and Guides and thank you for showing me the way when I am lost and keeping me on my toes when I'm not. Despite all of the hardships that I have gone through in life I know I will always get better and you will always be there for me. Blessed Be.

Hidden Altar Tips and Tricks #2

So adding from the other day I figured i would give you some more examples of what I have already shown you before i get on to new ideals. Numbers 1 and 2 are examples of the bowl ideal, number 2 being a floating bowl made to use as a offering dish to the god/goddess. Number 3 is a simple dish that you can do many things with to make an elemental altar in this case its candle colored water and dirt. I suggest actually getting crystal shards and filling them. And of course 4 and 5 are center pieces. 

This is a center peice that I have actually seen my grama do a couple of times when i was younger so I know for a fact it dose not raise eyebrows.

I love this one.

This one was so simple i decided to elaborate on how you could do this to without having statues that your worried someone will say something about. First off you could always get a faery if your a fairy wiccan, a dragon if you work with dragons, a animal you connect with or represents your god and goddess, heck you can just have a necklace and forgo the statue. Maybe even have a necklace with say a wolf on it or dragon and have that be a personal designated necklace to represent your path, just make sure that you purify it at least once a week to get rid of negativity.

This is a bathroom display that serves as a sea witches altar. the balls can be used for divination, the "pearl" i think is a moon stone I am not to sure *humm*.

Another way to amp up and designate a place as your altar or sacred work area is to get tables that have a meaning such as this one thats a tree. Or say a wolf end table or A driftwood coffee table, anything really works again as long as it has meaning to you. Besides they are a nice way to add character to a room without anyone knowing it also adds meaning.

Now this one is what I cal an altar in a vase. Simple take a crystal wand place 5 roses or any flower real or fake with the wand resting in the middle of all 5 right under the flower where the stem starts. Next take and wrap the garland around the stems so they secure the crystal into place and then place into your vase. You can use that vase as a altar and when you wish to work just take it out and set it up with some tea lights if you have them. *If you use real flowers and are keeping them into water make sure to see if your crystal can be wet* 

This is what i call the grab altar. Simple go on a nature walk and what you feel like your connected to grab as you walk. When you get to the end of your trail before you walk back place them on the ground or a stump and do your work leaving them when your done.

This one is kinda like the flower vase one only feathers and a piece of leather and fur to lay them out on.

This is a bird bath that you place flowers that you associate with your god and goddess in then add tea lights. Belive it or not this is also a great ideal as a way to light your bird bath or pond or fountain at night.

This is a crystal and stone concept, In this one you leave your stones and crystals outside in the bird bath and they get charged with sun and moonlight and you can just use the bird bath as a altar or take out the stones and crystals and set up a crystal altar. There are many designs for crystal altar or crystal grids and again this is a very simple way to hide your altar. If you dont have a birdbath you could just use a jar on a window seal and get the same effect.

Now on to wall altars done artiste. A fellow artiest on here said something that has stuck with me cus i feel the same way. Art is magic. The artiest spends time and pours there energy and intent into making the art perfect and show what they feel or mean. I have taken this into mind when I came up with this ideal. Simple you make a piece or art or find art that means something to you. For example: I plan on making a dragon/fairy wall altar, I plan on making a set of heavy metal fairy wings that i can wear on occasion but keep them apart so that i can also hang them on the wall in the center of the two wings im going to make one of these crayon arts by getting a dragon silhouette and placing it over a canvas and then proceed to melt red and black crayons around the dragon onto the canvas when im done ill remove the dragon and have a dragon outline with red and black for the background. There are several possibilities when it comes to DIY art ideals for a wall altar and im sure you can find one that fits for you. Some ideals are: making four small ones to represent each of the elements, making one with a quote that you are drawn to, finding a pic online that you like print it off onto iron on transfer sheets then ironing them onto a canvass or pice of fabric that you then stretch using embroidery hoops and hang onto the wall. The possibilities are endless.

I saw this and irremediably thought you could turn this into a wheel of the year and elements clock that has pictures like like a pumpkin for Samhain, Wheat for Lammas, Easter eggs for Ostara, A lake for water, a forest or mountain for earth, again the possibilities are endless. 

Hidden Pagan Altar Tips and Tricks #1

When making a altar you must first think of a few things before hand and keep a couple of thoughts in mind. 

• Its important to remember that no tools or symbols belong to any single faith or tradition; what they represent to you is what will be important. For example, if your parents are Catholic and you are not yet ready to tell them you have begun practicing Paganism, get a statue or picture of the Blessed Mother or St. Brigit (who, in pre-Christian times, was a Goddess rather than a Saint) and put it on your dresser. Surround it with your candles. Hang a Celtic cross above it– that is, an equal-arm cross (sometimes surrounded by a circle). The Celtic cross was originally a Pagan symbol but adapted for Christian use. Keep a set of rosary beads made of a crystal, stone or wood charged with magic. Instead of using them for Christian prayers, use them for meditation, chanting, or empowering objects by surrounding them with the beads.
• You must keep in mind that a altar can be sitting in the middle of your living room and, as long as you don’t have a giant pentacle hanging over a statue of the Horned God, most people would be none the wiser. Set up your altar on a shelf, mantle or table by using decorative candle holders, small potted plants, and artistic expressions and no one will guess that your 18th century floral porcelain plate is a pentacle or your elaborately carved medieval dagger hanging on the wall is more then just a part of your sword collection ;).
• What is important to you about your path? Do you follow multiple paths and if so what about your path are 100% got to have? I practice wicca but also practice aspects of Buddhism and Native American practices. This let me know that I want something that was simplistic but also incorporated my divination and aspects of my god and goddess but with a tie to my Native American and Buddhist aspects as well. 
• Who is your Goddess / God / Spirit Animal? What are some of the aspects or symbols that correspond to them be them known or what you feel represents them for you but also that you know wouldn't raise alarm? For example I follow Artemis and Poseidon and my Spirit animal is a Wolf, I also deal with Dragons. For me Blue and Purple are the colors I correspond with my God and Goddess. Other things would be sand dollars, sea shells, water, sand, antlers, nature, stars/crescent moon, deer, wolfs, fur.
•  What are some other things that you feel connected to or are prominent in your practices? For me salt, cinnamon and clovers are something I tend to use a lot. I also feel connected to fluorite.

• Another thing you might wont to consider is where your planing to place your altar. Do you need it to be facing a certain direction? Are you worshiping a Sun god or Moon goddess? if so it might be a good ideal to keep it within a area that gets sun or moonlight. Are you working with a small space like a small end table or bathroom sink or are you using a big space like a book shelf or dresser. 

Now that you have considered these aspects its time to think outside the box a little and see what works for you and to get you started here are some suggestions and thoughts. 

Minus the stone with the goddess if your worried about someone picking up the stone and seeing it this is a very cost effective simple altar ideal that can be placed anywhere and never raise a eyebrow. In a little bowl you place some sand/salt, place a tea light then add some stones/ crystals/ sea glass around the candle. Finally sprinkle some dried flowers or potpourri that matches with your god or goddess be it color smell or a flower/herb connected to them and your done. Make sure to dedicate your candle to your god and goddess and your done. 

This is a twist on the standard bookshelf. With it being a a circle shelf and the way its sectioned off  I love the many possibilities symbolism wise. Firstly the circle can represent the moon, the goddess, life, the wheel of the year and much much more. The sections can be dedicated to the four elements and the middle to spirit/god and goddess/yourself. Some other ideals besides the set up this person did is putting candle(s) in the middle instead  or a pic of yourself there instead of the bottom (I'm assuming that was her element and thats why the pic was there).

This is a simple autumn center piece but i love the concept and could see this a a alter in so many ways so I thought I would include it. Take a plate that you think fits your theme (sea, woods, Mabon, Ostara) you could also use a bowl. Then take and add three candles; the wood candles are a great way to add a nature element especially if your god or goddess are connected to nature like mine, you could also change the candles to fit your god and goddess better such as blue  candles if your say a sea witch or water is connected to your God or goddess or any candle really. Next you add a animal element such as an animal you are connected to like wolves or say if your theme is sea dolphins or horses or turtles or feathers for a Native American feel and to incorporate birds. Follow this with adding a wax/fake/real food that fits your god or goddess such as apples, grapes, a grain such as rice or corn. I know this doesn't seem like a altar but trust me thats the point after all. What you have just done is created a center piece for your table that has several symbols that are connected to your god /goddess and that is conveniently place on a table you can use to do your practices later.

This is kinda along the same lines as the center piece.

This is a really simple way to make a elemental based altar that can be made in just one glass or  5 it really does not matter. Taking various sized glasses (high wise) you add crystals or stones to the bottom or tied to the branches/twigs wit h wire. next add the twigs and arrange them so that they wont catch fire and allow the tea light to float. Next fill with water will about an inch below the rim, add the tea light and wahla you have a altar that you can place on a table, bookshelf, shelve, mantel the list is endless. If you do 5 you can arrange them in a line and when your ready to use them move them to the floor or on the table to form the points of a pentagram, If you use two you can dedicate one to the god and one to the goddess if so it might help to use crystals that are connected to your god in one and goddess in the other or just use different candle scents for each or color. If that is not an option keep in mind to dedicate each candle to its designated god or goddess and keep track of which is which.

This is another simple ideal that can go anywhere and is just small dishes that hold one of each  the elements and a single candle for the god and goddess.

This is a VERY SIMPLE and CHEAP altar ideal. Using a playing card deck pull out all the aces and the king and queen of hearts. Next your going to place the Queen of hearts in the center of the area your working, to the top of her sideways your to place the King (they will make a T) This is your god and goddess representation. Next you are going to place the aces in their corresponding elemental place around the god and goddess. Spade go to the right.and represent Air. Hearts go to the left because they represent Water. Diamonds go on Top because they rep Earth. And lastly, Clubs go to the bottom and represent Fire. When your done just simple place them back into your deck and your done.

Alright thats all I'm suggesting tonight guys belive it or not this had taken me about 6 hrs to plan out and write and I still think I dont make much since or messed up somewhere along the way. Anyway hope this helps someone.
Blessed Be from Baby Bear

4th of July

Hey guys so its been a little over a week since I was in the hospital and im doing good, had to take a week to finish meds, gain strength and get back to some what normal.

Anyways, now that I am back and everything I figured it was time to post a little something for the 4th.
As everyone knows this is the perfect time to get sparklers and since I never miss an opportunity to make a spell out of something odd I thought I would share something that I recently planed for tomorrow.

I like sparklers because they are a combination of fire but also night for me. What i mean by that is that the sparks to me are like fire stars that you can see up close and personal, almost as if im holding a star in my hand because im holding this wand of fire and light.

Going on this concept I made a spell/prayer to correspond with the moon phase atm. For me that is waxing so im doing a prayer for growth and health but if it was waning i would ask for banishing of my fears and obstacle in my way.

And what i will be doing is lighting the sparkler and say as i draw a pentagram in the air:
With this sparkler that I light
I hope you hear my spirits plight
For better health and spiritual growth
With fire light upon the air 
a pentagram for hope and care
I thank the for my answered prayer

Its simple to change the "For better health and spiritual growth" to fit yourself wish to gain/banish, and you can do this whenever.

I also find that this actually would make for a good coven prayer, kinda like when your coven leader lights their candle and then everyone lights their own, only its sparklers and as each person passes on the light they state what they are hoping to gain. I don't think it would be hard at all to make this into a simple little beginner coven ritual for say someone new to the craft and covens to get their feet wet.

Wicca/Wiccan, Pagan/Paganism, Witch/Witchcraft

So if anyone noticed Ive changed my about me this goes to something that I have just found out and Ive been studying to better understand.
What I changed was how i presented what I practice as being Wicca. See the problem with this is it wasn't till modern practitioners that Wicca was even named a religion.

You can search youtube and find several people post vids on the difference between Wicca, Witchcraft, and Paganism but what a lot of people dont know is that Wicca use to just mean that you were a male practitioner of a faith based on the worship of Gods and Goddesses. The females are called Wicche.
It wasnt until Gardner that Wicca was the name of the religious practice, and has only been around for about 60/70 years. Before then they were just Pagans who practiced various coven based practicing. Now that Ive gotten that out of the way lets begin.

Now me personally this is how I separate the difference's between the three and why I define myself as a Pagan Wicche.

WITCHCRAFT
Witchcraft is the practice of using earth, elements and natural energies. This meaning people who are herbalist or aromatherapist who use natural properties of herbs, fruits, flowers and so on to aid them in a cause be it healing, relaxation, pain relief and so on. This also applies to people who do say yoga because it helps with pain or acupuncturist who use pressure points to alleviate pain and brake habits. Witches are more so Shamans then Wiccans and do not have to believe in Gods or Goddesses and can practice any religion freely. They do not have to adhere the the Wiccan Rede and are not a religion. And a witch can be anyone who uses natural remedies as oppose to medicine, say your Grandmother who tells you about using sweet onion oil for ear aches, or chewing whole clover to numb your gums cus you have a tooth ache and are out of Orajel. Witches can also cast spells without calling on gods and goddesses for help.
Witches can be both Wiccan and Pagan but can choose not to be.
 (DISCLAIMER: This doesn't give you permission to call your grandma a witch.)

WICCA
Wicca, is a new religion based on old Pagan practicing of covens worshiping and having ceremonies and traditions for various Gods and Goddesses. The term Wicca, like I stated before is actually the male practitioner and Wicche the female. Now they are both considered Wiccans. Practitioners of Wicca believe in Gods and Goddesses and follow a standard of living and practicing based on the Wiccan Rede (the link is the full version). It was published by Gwen Thomson in Green Egg Magazine in 1975, and attributed to her grandmother. The Rede has been redone several times and most have shortened it down but all follow these rules:

 An it harm none, do as ye will. 
This means if it harms none then do as you please. 

And ever mind the Rule of Three:

What ye send out, comes back to thee.

That what you do comes back to you 3 fold, or 3 times as bad or good.
Follow this with mind and heart,
And merry ye meet, and merry ye part.
Follow both the laws and the beliefs with all your heart and mind otherwise you will not be happy and you will not enjoy your practice to its fullness.

Now with Wicca you can be a Witch just like you could be a Witch if you are Christian, however you do not have to be a witch. Now most Wiccans believe that all Gods and Goddesses are real and just chose to focus on one set pantheons, or set of mythologies, or pick and choose what feels right to them, usually after spend years ahead of time studying and learning to the best of their abilities about their practice before choosing the God(s) and/or Goddess(es) who they believe has chosen them or to work with and even after then they spend all of their lives learning from their God(s) and/or Goddess(es) to learn what all they are willing to teach them in this life. Some also choose to believe in just Male and Female energy aka God and Goddess or Father and Mother. They do not choose a named god or goddess but just focus on the energies that the Male and Female represent.
Wiccans are Pagans and most are Witches.

PAGANISM
Paganism is an umbrella term for any one who dose not follow the Abrahamic religions: Christianity, Muslim and Judaism. All pagans are nature based religions or cultures and include everything from Buddhist, Hinduism, Native American cultural practices, Naturalist and Yogies. Pagans are people without God meaning the Abrahamic god. Like wise Pagans can be divided between a diagram of :
Community- worshiping with a community or focusing on that group of people (this part is controversial but I have to agree that it is a component because you can choose to worship with people or without)
Deity- The worship of a deity of any kind and can be one or more.
Self- The worship and building of you yourself.
Nature- The worship of nature and all that it gives us and the energy that comes from it.
This means you can focus on worshiping all, some or just one of the four aspects but most stick to just one or two aspects.
Pagans do not have to be Wiccan or Witches.

(I basically restated the definition on this one because there are to many that fall under Paganism also I am saying that its both nature based religions or practices but also cultural practices that are non abrahamic and this includes life styles)


Now I mix a lot of religions to make up my path both Wicca, a little bit of Voodoo, some Celtic traditions and a lot of Witchcraft, I have a lot of values that are also taken from all over the place like Buddhism and Native American because I feel they fit with my practice and are me. I believe in my God and Goddess, I worship them and hope to learn as much as I can from them. And going through my mind at this point in time is that I am a female pagan who practices a lot of various pagan religion practices spread out not just wicca and as I cover a little of all the circles but community atm and that is only because I do not live in an area where that is available, I decided for me I am a Pagan Wicche, a female practitioner of paganism not just wicca. If I'm wrong to call my self as such then I guess thats on me.

May Day Pics :)

This is my God candle holder at the moment I just keep these neat gel balls that hold the sent of essential oils. I think I have blackberry in it atm I'm not sure.

This is my Goddess candle holder. I put tea lights into these btw or some of the fat pillar candles if i can find them in the right size.

This is my drawing of Freya and my sigil of the holidays is on her arm. I added her two cats and of course the raven she turns into along with some flowers she loves in her hair. And the word is her name in this Norse font i found online and liked.

I got into the mood to make this like two days and i didnt know why until i was making my alter today ><. 

I made this to represent my wolf spirit guide and to honor him on my alter :)

This is a caligraphy piece i won in a giveaway done by one of my friends on everythingunderthemoon.com and i love it.

This is just a wreath i made out of tp rolls and some flowers, its a bunch of flowers and two butterflies. 

This is another wreath but my grama made this one for easter I just stole it for today lol

This is a hair spray cap that i saved with some ducktape on the bottom so the holes are covered, i made a bow and added it to the back to look like wings. In the cap is milk, honey, rain water collected earlier this morning, and some cinnamon. This is my faey offerings.

heres just a back veiw

and this is a side view

This is my make shift alter. Living with my Grama I cant leave it out or have to much so this is my solution.

This is a old gel incense jar filled with dandelion seeds, some ginger and lemon grass with some lemon rine and a few other herbs.

Beltane

So Beltane is coming up and i thought I would take a moment to say I cant wait lol.

Traditionally Beltane or May Day depending on who your talkin to and what beliefs your working off of is a day when the veil between the Faey World and ours are.
This meaning if your like me its ideal time to celebrate with your dragon, talk to the faey and just honor the faey and elfs for all they do and the Faey come out and play.

I chose on this day, since this is my first one I will be celebrating, to make some hand made flower centerpiece  for my alter, crown Freya for my May Queen, and try out some fun traditional holiday games.
Ill make a point to post some pics on here the day or two after :)

I also thought It would be fun to post some traditions and facts that I have found in my research: Hope you enjoy:

1. Beltane is Gaelic for Bright Fire or Goodly Fire, and there for is the festival of fire. Traditionally believers would make two huge bonfires dancing around and in between the two fires and/ or  taking turns jumping over them.

" "This was the Tein-eigen, the need fire. People jumped the fire to purify, cleanse and to bring fertility. Couples jumped the fire together to pledge themselves to each other. Cattle and other animals were driven through the smoke as a protection from disease and to bring fertility. At the end of the evening, the villagers would take some of the Teineigen to start their fires anew." (From Sacred Celebrations by Glennie Kindred)"

2. It is common for pagans to hold handfasting during this time due to this being the time where the goddess and god are married and most passionate. This is also a time where the married get a "hall pass" so to speak and spend the night "a merrymaking" through the forest or party ;)

3. The Maypole is a popular tradition where a pole, representing God, with a ring of flowers at the top, representing the Goddess, and many colorful ribbons hanging from the top to the ground, representing Life and the union of the Goddess and the God (earth and sky). Children take and do the "weave dance" or "ribbon dance", as some call it, and weave the ribbon around the pole.

4. It is common to place around bowls of milk and honey. This is a treat for the faey and are placed all over the house and yard in hopes that the faey would visit.

5. One traditional game during this time is to place a hazel nut into the coals, one for each of your crushes. Seeing as its more modern times take a permanent marker and write their names on the hazel nut. If one busts that person is not your love or is unfaithful, if it glows till its ashes then they are faithful and true. You could do this with just one for your current boyfriend or if your deciding on a crush and doesn't have to be just for Beltane in fact this is just a traditional game done on holidays or celebrations.

6. This is another fun game kinda asken to the Jewish game of   matzah  where the children have to find the Matzah. In this game Salomone hides a thimble, a ring and a penny. The children go in one at a time to find an object, just one, and after they find it they give it to the hider and he/she re-hides it and repeats till all the children have gone. The ideal is that the ones who finds the thimble will be in a state of "single blessedness" growing up, the ring represents the ones who will  be "speedy marred" and the penny are the ones who will be wealthy.

7.Another tradition during this time is dressing up in costumes. Many will dress as faey and make wings and masks and flower crowns or braid flowers into their hair.

8. Collect rain water, dew or water from a spring on this day to use in health and beauty spells.

9. Some of the traditional foods eaten during this time are Oatmeal, honey, breads, cereals and anything dairy.

10. It is also traditional for people to camp our all night and be with nature, gathering flowers and woods to decorate their home and to be one with mother nature.


Well thats all I plan to say for now I might make a couple of more post on the topic and Im planing on posting some pics later but this then

Blessed Be

Dream Journals

Hey guys sorry its been a bit, what with internet not working right, Easter (all my family is mega Christian lets just say that was a day of to much for something that admittedly isn't even the right day to celebrate) and my mom apparently ODing up in GA *sigh*. Lifes been a whirlwind the last couple of days. But I'm back.


So Todays topic, for me anyway, is Dream Journals.

I've been told on numerous occasions I should keep one and its always coming up in my tarot readings so I started keeping one online 'cus I know right off the bat I would never keep up with one thats written (Ive tried that before and just didn't do anything with it after about a week) and I would get lazy and not put everything down and miss something important. I started this the last week of February and I have to admit its not really working, granted its working WAY better then my written one ever did. I don't seem to remember to get online and write it out or to be honest I'll be like "It wasn't an important dream so why bother." 

So heres the topic for you guys: leave me a comment and tell me how you manage to get into the habit of writing out your dreams and tricks you have for dream journals. I would love some tips and tricks :)

BLISSED BE

Hey guys :)
Today I was thinking on tools we use in our practice and was thinking about making my wand and I got this Ideal.

Wood itself have many many many properties and many people make a wand out of one wood for this and another for this. I myself cant do this and was thinking.. why not make one out of clay and sprinkle in powder made from the woods that I am drawn to.

Using this logic i could get some clay and instead of adding say Faery Dust, you instead add a mixture of wood flour, mix it thoroughly and design the wand with the crystal and wire you need and any sigils or runes or anything else you need to carve into it. I could sculpt with this way better, I could do a whole lot more and i could make it way more personal for me anyway then with just one piece of wood.

So thats what I'm planing on doing and when I'm done I shall show post a pic to show you how it turned out :)

So i found this wallpaper and just love it so thought i would share the love .

So as everyone knows last night was a blood moon ie a lunar eclipse and to celebrate it i did two spells and so i thought i would post them for my blog post today:

FIRST:

For this one i did a Banishment spell. 

I found this fear banishment spell online and was like "I can make this work for me" and this was what I came up with.

First you are going to need a piece of paper a pen and a plant (or you can just bury it into the ground).

On the piece of paper your going to make a border around all the sides of the paper with a continues writing of the sentence "I banish from me".
Next you are going to write out all the things you thing is holding you back in life.

For me it was:

Fears 

Lack of Confidence

My over trusting nature

My 100lbs i need to lose 

 Then you are going to fold the paper and bury your paper under the plant or in the ground saying:

In this box i place

The things i need to banish,

To send them far away from here;

Banish that which holds me back

So I can get things back on track.

As your doing this your going to visualize the ground or plant soaking up what you wish to banish and grounding your mind of anxiety, stress and anything else you need grounded. Your visualize that earth is taking away your problems like the mother she is.

You are going to let this happen for 30 min then come back and get your paper and throw it away so that the effects dont stay in your place, or effect that area in a negative way. 

I burnt my paper so that it would be scattered in the air and purified by fire (i do this with alot of things cus fire is my element and it is believed that burning your messages can send them to the gods and the spirit realms where your guides and other beings reside). I also know that today was going to be nothing but rain so i left the ashes on my driveway and let water carry it away also.

SECOND:

This one wasn't really a spell but a request. I thought I would use the increases in magical energy to help along a message from me to my deities. I have been struggling with reawakening my powers to their full potential since its been years since ive actually used them having grown up hiding them as much as i could and avoiding them. Needless to say they are not happy about it (my powers that is). 

So heres what I did and its pretty simple, I wrote a letter to the god and goddess (I suggest using stationary that is special to you and using a pencil cus lead is used to silence negativity ie might help in the safe passage of the letter). Sounds silly right but thats what I did. To me to send something physical to the spirit realm for Hermes to send to the god and goddess was the most logical thing to do. 

I had read somewhere in my studies that it is believed that on Samhain you should write a letter to those who have passed and then burn it so that they may keep it with them forever and I just feel in love with the concept and ideal behind it. Since then Ive written a letter to my spirit guide and thanked him for all of his work and willingness to guide me on my life journey and to be honest it was within i wont to say a day that I got little hints and signs that he had gotten my message and loved it. 

My thoughts were "Why cant i do this with my gods, they are just as important to me and need to be honored and know that i appreciate them just as much and who really take the time to write a letter of appreciation these days" so thats what i did. 

In the letter i thanked them for choosing me even though I am not positive who my god deity is yet and still question my goddess i know that they are looking out for me and have manage to dream about them and know that they are the ones who have gifted me with so much. I asked them to help me better control my powers and awaken them to my full potential. 

I then put runes i thought i need to add to the four corners of my paper, folded it into fours and then wrote a blessing asking Hermes to grant this letter safe passage to my god and goddess, again placing runes on the four corners and i even drew some symbols of Hermes on it. I then went out side with an offering of Gushers, ik not the best of offerings to others but growing up for me we couldn't have them cus they were to expensive so to me they are a treat and ik that they would understand that. I offered a couple of Gushers and then i set my paper on fire holding it and placed it on the ground making sure it burnt all the way then i broke up the ashes so the wind could blow it and the rain could wash it away.

RANDOM Pic Post #1

Love this ones off center antlers and flower reef. I also love her hair color.

This one has lovely red hair and i just love the amount of work she put into her reef and wings for her May Day celebrations.

This one sorta reminded me of a dream I have about my diety and my dragons.

I love the whole crecent moon perch with the day of the dead sugar skull and the lock and key aspect of this owl.

Just a brilliantly done fire Faey. Being a fire element I just adore it.

This one was just to cute not to post :)

YAY 21st Birthday

Hey guys so i forgot that I even had one of these so i was like you know what, lets revamp it and start from scratch because its a new year (for me lol) and I'm ready for some BLOGING fun. So lets start with what I hope for in the coming year of my life and some facts about me :

This year for me is going to be all about openly practicing and doing as much as I can to further my Wiccan Path. I grow up in the south where "Our Lord Jesus" rains supreme in the religion department. I have grown up in church and was made to go every day of my life till I turned 15/16 and started putting my foot down, and my mom started using more so she didn't care as much, but thats besides the point :P
From having to go to church Sunday morning for Sunday School and church, to Sunday Afternoon for children and later adult Chorus practice, Sunday night church, Wednesday nights youth church, Thursday for Teen group and drama practice, Friday once a month traveling to other youth gatherings and every other Saturday for Travailing Chorus ie a bunch of old people and me and my sisters and mom went to nursing homes and song for them I had had more then enough of church. Oh and the week long summer church camp lets not forget those, about the only time i enjoyed church to be honest.
I have dabbled in wicca off and on secretly since i was 9 and have always been the kid who was like "Why are we believing in the words a man wrote in a book that others have proven to be wrong or at least parts to be missing? If god had a child then doesn't that make Him a Her, and if not then who is his wife and dosn't that mean there is a goddess, also? Your bible has many translations and rewordings, and in fact Christians have gradually changed thoughts and ideals to fit them so then are one Christian different then another and there for one is wrong and another right?"  Needless to say I was not a favorite among my church's preachers when I asked questions.

At this moment of time I have not set a specific path other then I know that I like parts of Draconian Wicca, Norse Gods, and Gris Gris bags are a focal point in my practice. I also throw in Celtic magic and Native American elements because I am both. I have been studying and have decided to start my year and a day study Today only because to me this is a new year in my life and being 21 I consider this to be a major year in becoming an Adult.

As for my practicing spells so far Ive only done three or four. One to banish negative energies from my friend and it was actually a jar I made and added some herbs to some lead and some sigils I made just for the spell. Another was to achieve my goal of weight loss 'cus I'm a women and that what we do :P jk I being 250 lbs am way over weight and I know this, I have been sick for the last 2 years and just started getting better as of December so I'm trying to rid myself of all the weight I gained during that time (I have never been over 175 lbs and this is killing me *sigh*). A spell to help my abilities come out of hiding, due to my moms trying to use my abilities and other things I have locked out my abilities to see and communicate with spirit and tried my hardest to eliminate my Knowledge Speak (the ability to say something and it be true when you didn't even know what you said before you said Ill explain this one I'm more detail in another post), Empathy and were not even going to do into my dreams. And a luck spell gris gris I paired with my "Ability and Health" necklace I made for myself.

My Goals This Year:

I'm hoping to add more spells to my repartition via jewelry like necklaces and bracelets. In fact I have a whole list of them already made just need the materials.

Make a wand.

Get some more materials and set up an alter.

Do some more DIY things.

Make my first BOS that isn't online or in a notebook that is consist organized and not so randomly done and note-takingly done.